Messy stuffs blocking my nerve tracks.
Waking alone, seeing that I am totally lost.
This is not the me that I used to be.
So I need some time to clear the mess, to teach myself the right way to behave, and the right words to say.
I need some time to tell myself that it isn’t bad that I failed my forensic exam, it isn’t bad that my left hand is not improving much, and it isn’t bad that my right hand continues to cause me pain.
I had been wandering off too far. It’s too far for me.
I will be praying hard, that some day, my right hand will be totally fine and I need not to rely on helping hands even in the little things that I could do in life.
I need discipline. I need to do real studying. I need to rest well. I need a good laugh. I need a good appetite. I need to summon the optimist in me!
I’ll be having a week’s break. I’ll be back again, fully charged and once again, it’s the Yen-Née whom I adore so much.
(I kinda dislike the current me. 😦 )
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